I'm a mess...

It's starting to really hit me these days.

I don't know what has gotten into me.. Its as if I can't handle anything all over again. Just spoke with my lawyer today and he's like, "You know you have court this Thursday right? You know you have to plead guilty and accept the plea this Thursday right?" I responded, "I know........." Of course I know. How could I possibly forget such a thing? I don't know what came over me after that conversation though that completely tore me up and broke me down.

I just ask for some strength right now... some smiles and laughter and strength... I can't write right now...