The unknown future.

Everybody is constantly trying to plan life ahead of time, prepare for the future, know in advance what is to come. We visit psychic readers just to hear what we want them to tell us. We need engagement rings to lock down the security of marrying this person sometime in the future that you want to spend your life with. We typically prefer to work in jobs that provide a sense of financial stability as opposed to risk. We always plan ahead and feel more satisfied and content when we are working towards a goal of some sort and acknowledge just what it is or else we feel lost. But why? Because of fear of the unknown.

I'm not saying that I'm not afraid of the future either, but there is a distinction between living your life in utter fright and acknowledging your fears yet still being able to take risks and live. At this point of my life, I truthfully have a lot of fears for my future. Will my family have the strength to be alright while I'm locked up? Will I? Will I come across many inmates that don't surround me with the positivity I need at certain times of weakness? How about my career path when I am released. How about my bills left unpaid for years. Are my friends going to gradually visit me and write me less because I do understand that they have their own lives to live... Is my dog going to think I deserted him? (Yes, that one's important too because he is actually the one living thing that depends on me most.) Will all my friends get married without me and am I going to age a lot and be single for the rest of my life? I could potentially drive myself insane listing my million plus fears, but what's the point. I believe that it's impossible to completely not be afraid, but you need a balance. Just enough to make you work at achieving whatever you need to be done, but not too much that makes you unable to enjoy the journey. Grasp and take each day as it comes while being conscious about how it affects your future as well. Take practical risks but live passionately and pursue what means most to you because you only live once. Grab as much strength as you can and face your fears with no regrets. Just fucking do it... right?! Life is short, we should start making the most of what is there...