11 months: The shit I do in here...literally

I just had to clean up the most disgusting toilet covered with diarrhea all over the place. I felt like I was about to vomit.

For my housekeeping job, I have to clean up the guards' office 3x a week. They chose me for that specific job because they don't trust many other inmates in there on their own. It's usually not too bad; dump a little bleach, take out the trash, clean the bathroom and sweep and mop the office. I have gloves to use.

Today, however, I walked in and the toilet was completely covered with green and brown SHIT! What kind of grown man makes such a mess and then doesn't clean up after himself? The officers on duty claim that it was someone else from the previous shift.

I was almost about to refuse to clean that, but I would have gotten a charge that could possible prevent me from going to grounds and the halfway house on schedule. I literally had to control myself from puking the entire time as I cleaned it several times before the mess was completely gone.

I'm so grossed out. On another note, I watched the movie Eat, Pray, Love on the movie channel and was inspired to take a vow of silence. My friend Maria is doing it as well. No speaking for 7 days and lots of meditation. This is not going to include visits (if I get any, that is. Haven't for the past 2 weeks so who knows.) I don't expect it to be simple; it will require a lot of discipline. But when else would I have the opportunity? It's Day 1 still and I'm going strong. Already, my mind is a little more at peace and I feel aware of so much more in my surroundings as well as my thoughts already. I'll let you know how it goes. I'm carrying around a sign that say "I'm in silence for 7 days, have a nice day =)"

NAMASTE!