9 months left!! Woohoooo

It's so strange how many of us go about our daily lives in a negative manner and don't even realize it. Complaining about this and that. Dreading work or whatever else. Wishing we had more money or would win the lottery. Wanting to go on vacation. Annoyed and frustrated at others for one reason or another. Impatient.

My goal is to steer far away from this negativity, whether it is from others or within myself. Today, as I was on the train, I stared out of my window at the breathtaking sunrise across the NYC skyline and was amazed at the beauty of nature in itself. As I walked off the train, I was able to take note of the cherry blossom trees blooming as springtime nears. And I thought, how interesting that the trees change with seasons and weather. The contrast between winter, fall, spring, and summer. Day and night. Everything in life is a balance between one extreme and the other. Hot and cold. Good and bad. Smiles and frowns. Man and woman. Negative and positive.

Both will always exist and one seems meaningless without the other. But sometimes we tend to focus a great deal more on one (especially the negatives), failing to acknowledge the positives. Why is that? I don't know, but I choose to do the opposite. The glass half full is always better.

Anyhow, to update you on a few things- I'm doing well. 9 months left OMG. Single digits of months!!!! Wow. I've been getting many A's on exams, papers, briefs, etc. for my classes and that makes me happy. My family is healthy and for that I'm truly grateful. I had a scare last week because my mom's mammogram showed up with microcalfications. But she had a biopsy done and it turned out negative for cancer. Thank god for that. My friend Jen, the one who escaped from the halfway house and was sent back to prison, went home on I.S.P. (intensive supervision program?). I'm glad she gets that opportunity and I wish the best for her. Lo & Maria are still up in the max unit and we still write each other here and there. I've been slacking with my letter writing lately- that's my fault. I met up with my first friend from County, Linda, a few weeks ago too. It was crazy seeing her again after 2 years and crazier to think back to that time and how much I've grown since then.

Life could be better and I can't wait to go home in 9 months, but I cannot complain. Because at the same time, life could be worse. I'm just making the most of what I can. I can only be grateful despite the negatives and think of all the positives. Nothing in life and nobody is perfect. But we have to work on improving what we can, and appreciating the good. Because you never know what is going to happen tomorrow.